Have you ever asked someone special to explain EXACTLY how they feel about you? I have. It was the realest, most impactful, and HARDEST conversation I’ve
ever had.

::Back Track:: Prior and leading up to this conversation I lived with an uncertainty in my core, “Am I enough?” This core question does not go away. We may try for
years to shove it out of our awareness and cover it up by constructing a false self. In this false self, we find a few new gifts that work for us, find a group where
we feel accepted, secure a little love and admiration, and use it to shield us from the pain of our uncertainty. But any wound that goes unacknowledged is a wound
that can not heal.

Truth be told, many of us have been hiding from these uncertainties. Until we know that we are enough we will forever be trying to prove we are, while at the
same time shrinking away from anything that might reveal we are not. We are desperately afraid of exposure so we hide in our office, behind friends, and mostly behind our personality. We pick only those battles we are sure to win, only those adventures we are sure to handle, only those beauties we are sure to rescue because that core question of, “What if I offer all I have and its not enough?” haunts us.

But life doesn’t want you to hesitate, hide, or shrink – it wants to AWAKEN you to the fact that you are ENOUGH! More than enough! In many cases we are
forced to be SHAKEN ED (not a word lol) to be AWAKENED because life knows in order to save our true selves we must first lose our fake selves. This process requires us to leave all that is familiar, and go into the unknown. It involves a journey and a series of tests and with each test comes a NEW revelation.

Unfortunately, I spent years misinterpreting the tests that life had given me. I made wishes that life would just be easier. I was asking myself questions like,
“Why did this happen to me? or Why cant I … (fill in the blank -have it easy, get my girl back, earn that promotion-you know what you’ve been whining about)!Do you see what is at work here? John Eldridge writes in his book ‘Wild at Heart’, “If this is the water you are truly thirsty for, then why do you remain thirsty after you’ve had a drink?” I had been drinking from the wrong well, fixated on the wrong things, and asking the wrong questions!